13 February, 2016

Fear or Urge

What is Vertigo ? Fear of Falling ?
Then why do we feel it even when the observation tower comes equipped with a sturdy handrail ? 
No, vertigo is something other than the fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.

These lines from The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera ring true to me...
There is a thin line between the fear of doing something, and the fear because you realize you have the urge... despite knowing that the end result might not be very good.
This is not an argument of the devil and the angel sitting on your shoulders... this is pure impulse... and the fear of the impulse... because suddenly, you face the moment of truth.

06 February, 2016

Frustration

Frustration is a frustrating feeling... It sucks you unto a loop of negativity leading to even more negative thoughts.. further leading to an increased dose of frustration....
It is like a maze which you can't exit by finding light at the end of the tunnel... there is no end of the tunnel...  one just has to break a hole through the damn tunnel, and try and feel better about themselves...


16 January, 2016

Influences and Influencers

We learn different aspects to different people/moments we come across in life... afterall we are but sponges, who absorb what we come across, both positive and negative...

The love for history from a fabulous teacher in school who kept narrating history of the world like small anecdotes she witnessed herself....
The love for reading from a doting grandfather who would mark out snippets in the newspaper for us to read...
The fear of traffic defaulters from the accident of a dear friend...
The list is endless....

But we somehow ignore the inherent reason we are able to soak all this up... the gene pool and the environment we grew up in, thanks to our family and near and dear....


09 January, 2016

The "Odd" Even Choice

Ok... So the Delhi air still looks quite smoky and polluted.
But the one thing no one who has travelled the Delhi roads in the last week will deny... is that irrespective of what impact this odd-even formula has had on the pollution levels, it has definitely made driving on Delhi roads a pleasure again.

So for all the critics, presenting to you, the clean.. oops, empty Delhi roads..

Kudos to all the people travelling on the Delhi roads these days... for putting up with the buses, metros, autos, cabs.. whatever it takes.. to make it work !

29 December, 2015

Odd Even... Even Odd

We Delhites are born critiques...  you place in front of them even Michelangelo's David, and you'll find them commenting about the tall height and hair too curly....
Scepticism seems to be inborne... like second nature to all of us...

Which is why I have decided to make an earnest request.. to a all those residing in the capital... to keep their extraordinary pessimistic thought process aside, and try and abide by the new rules being set to improve traffic, and effectively reduce pollution...

We might talk about insufficient public transport, overcrowded metros, unsafe roads... the list is endless... but for once, keep all the thoughts aside, and try, just try, to make it work...

Use odd for odd and even for even.. carpool... use public transport... cycle... walk....

But just try.... not because some Kejriwal has the courage to do something radical... but simply because we need to... 

20 December, 2015

Anger

We are talking... and suddenly, without realizing, our voice approaches a crescendo... our pitch changes.. the heart starts palpitating... faster.. faster.... till we can hear the sound in our ears... and no longer hear what the other one is saying.....

So it no longer remains a dialogue... we can't see the other person's perspective or hear their thoughts.... our head is just buzzing with our own....

Suddenly the realization dawns... that this is pointless...
10... 9... 8... 7... 6... 5... 4... 3... 2... 1...

Sigh....

What was I discussing in the first place ?!? 

Anger Management, by Phil Singer
Source: http://psingerart.com/his_work/anger-management/


13 December, 2015

Independent Being

We come into the world, tied to our mothers cord...  tightly hugging her... ensuring we get all the warmth, help and support through life.... 
Somewhere along the way we become "intelligent", and we try and become self sufficient and intelligent... being "able" to take on the world and trudge on... and accomplish what we seek....

Just when all is going well, suddenly, we trip and fall....  we stumble and try to get up on our own... THIS is the wake up call.. for us... to realize we all need the help...
That we might be intelligent and independent, but we need the support, just in case time throws us off balance...  

Now my prayer has changed from hoping that I remain independent all through my life.... to the wish that I remain independent, till I have the grace and sense to take someone's help when I need it... Amen. 

Source: http://mimiandeunice.com/2012/07/20/independent/